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I CAN'T GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT
AND I'M NOT SURE WHAT YOU NEED
THE ONLY THING I CAN DO
IS JUS BE ME
AND ME HAS A GIRL
THAT I LOVE TO DEATH
EVERYONE ELSE...
I'LL PLAY EM TO THA LEFT
YOU ARE THE EX
AND I'VE GIVEN YOU A ROLE
IF YOU PLAY IT OR NOT
THAT FUTURE IS UNTOLD
I'VE GIVEN YOU A KEY
BUT IT'S NOT TO MY HEART
I TOLD YOU THAT WHEN WE BROKE UP
SO YOU KNEW IT FROM THA START

I DIDN'T MEAN TO BREAK YA HEART SHAWTY
I WAS JUS PLAYIN THA GAME
DIDN'T THINK IT WAS THAT SERIOUS
NOW WE'LL NEVA BE THA SAME

YOUR TIME

I JUST WANT YOUR TIME,
WE AIN'T GOTTA WINE AND DINE.
I JUST WANT YA TIME,
YOU GIVE ME YOURS AND I GIVE YOU MINE.
I JUST WANT YOUR TIME,
SO WE CAN DO THA THINGS WE DO.
I JUST WANT YA TIME,
I'M TRYIN TA TELL YA I. WANT YOU.

I JUST WANT YA TIME,
THERE IS NO TELLING WHAT WE WOULD DO.
JUST SOME OF YA TIME,
GET TO KNOW A THING OR TWO.
A MOMENT OF YOUR TIME,
AND I WILL KNOW SOMETHINGS YOU DO.
JUST SOME OF YA TIME,
I'M TRYIN TA BE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU.

A MOMENT OF YA TIME,
TO HELP FORGET ABOUT YA PAST.
I JUST WANT THA TIME
TA TAKE IT SLOW, DON'T MOVE TO FAST
JUST SOME OF YA TIME,
IT NEVER WAITS SO MAKE IT LAST.

MY IDEA OF LOVE

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS NOT EXACTLY
A MILLION DOLLAR RING
DIAMONDS AND OTHER
BIG THINGS THAT
BASIC WOMEN LIKE TO SHOW
FOR THIS IS ABOUT
ME AND YOU
NOT ABOUT OTHERS
AND WHAT THEY THINK WE DO

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS LITTLE THINGS
TEXTS SAYIN I WAS ON YOUR MIND
LET'S ME KNOW
YOU THINK ABOUT ME
ALL THE TIME
THE THINGS WE SAY
IN THE PRIVACY OF US
ITS THE LITTLE THINGS THAT BUILD
SUCH A GREAT TRUST

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS WAKING UP
WITH YOU ON MY MIND
ALWAYS WANTING
TO BE NEAR YOU
NO MATTER THA TIME
EVEN WHEN YOU'RE NOT HERE
YOUR PRESENCE
IS ALWAYS CLEAR
EVERY TIME I PICK UP
MY PHONE
YOU MAKE ME FEEL
THAT I'M NOT ALONE

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS NOT JUST
YOU CALLING ME BABY
ITS SO MUCH MORE
AND IT ENDS WITH ME
BEING YOUR LADY
THIS AINT NO MAYBE
YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO
AT THE END OF THA DAY
I JUST WANT YOU

MY IDEA OF LOVE
STARTS WITH ME
AND ENDS WITH YOU
NOBODY HAS TO KNOW
OUR RELATIONSHIP IS NOT A SHOW
ITS ME AND YOU
BONNIE AND CLYDE
RIDE TIL WE DIE
I'LL ALWAYS BE BY YOUR SIDE
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tha storm

IT SEEMS AS IF SOMETHING ALWAYS GOES WRONG
THE WEATHER I THOUGHT WAS PERFECT,
TURNED INTO A STORM
THE SKY MAY LOOK BLUE
BUT TO ME IT'S GREY
AND THE CLOUDS THAT ROLL IN,
THAT'S MY ANGER
IT'S MY TEARS THAT'S THE RAIN
AND THE THUNDER YOU HEAR...
THAT'S ME SHOUTIN OUT IN PAIN
IT FILLS THE SKY AND MY BODY
WITH SO MUCH RAGE
ITS NEVER THE SAME
THINGS ALWAYS CHANGE
SO WHEN THINGS GO WRONG
WHO AM ITO BLAME
 I JUST WANT TO GO TO SLEEP
TO MAKE IT GO AWAY
MAYBE TOMORROW WILL BE
A BETTER DAY

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It always amazes me tha things people say when they are upset. like ok, so this what u been thinkin this whole time? damn.  *rolls eyes* it hurts when you get into it with people you care about and they say mean things. its human nature to feel hurt, and yet that doesn't make me feel ANY better. its crazy how we as people are so interested in other peoples lives sometimes. it's like people sometimes live tru others. and people love drama. myself included but on tv mostly, definately not in my world. our world is fukd up and people are screwed if they don't get it together! like who tha hell really makes a hobby out of lieing and fukn up other peoples lives?! or at least causing an argument or something. its like we are entertained by tha most crazy things. *shakes head* I have more to say... jus wait.

<3 Niki Diva

Never Go Back

You can never go back
Or take back tha words
Erase tha things you said and did
Tha damage is done
You words they cut like tha knife I pulled
It fukd u up
That much is tru

I played tha fool
Played with ur heart
You said it from tha start
But I didn't see it that way
All it took was one day
To kill everything u felt
All that you were hiding inside
I lost it all
And still you tried
To give me ur all
But something wouldn't work
Somethin wouldn't let us work

Maybe its not our time
Timing is everythin
Cause there's no doubt in my heart
You're tha one for me
I pray that in time we'll be
What you dream of
And that i wear ya ring
Share ya name
Nothing will ever be tha same
I will never be that again

You tought me so much
Gave me so much
So much of yourself and energy
Time you can't get back
I jus want you back
Layin next to me
Layin on me

I'm sorry I was tha one
To bring hurt upon you
Never ment to do anything to you
Now alone I sit
And slowly tha tears fall
Memories of you throughout this place
Your towel, your toothbrush, tha cup you left next to tha bed
Pieces of you all around me
I don't jus want pieces I want all of you
Sorry I caused you pain
And betrayed your trust
I really do want it to be jus us
I didn't even get a kiss good bye...

Is Fidelity A Thing Of The Past?

     It almost never starts off with bad intentions. Something as simple as a good conversation with a co-worker can amazingly lead to something that is not so innocent. A few talks at work while on your break and the next thing you know you've exchanged numbers and it goes from there. A few phone calls  here and there, a lot of text messages. The next thing you know a group of co-workers are all going out to a bar one Friday night. It's just co-workers out together having a good time right? Well, at least that's how it started, now Lisa  and Chris are at the table doing a bit more flirting than they should. His hand is on her leg and she is giggling and twirling her hair. It would be all  fun and good times only Lisa has a boyfriend...

     The year is 2010 and it seems as if we have reached a point where staying true to our partner is becoming a dream or a fantasy. A  number of celebrities have fallen victim to this cheating frenzy, however they are not the only ones that take the bait in this type of situation. What is the reason people cheat? Is it a sexual thing, the need for a more spontaneous sex life? Maybe its that you are no longer attracted to your partner like you once were. Maybe they are not paying you as much attention as you would like. But is that really a good reason to break the commitment that you have to one another? People tend to think that in a relationship your partner should meet all of your physical and emotional needs and when they don't it creates a reason to step outside of that relationship and look to others to feel the void. 

     The opportunity for cheating gets greater with the use of alcohol. The access is also a lot easier with it being literally at your fingertips. Sites such as Twitter, Facebook or even Myspace make it to where a person can pursuit a stranger or even someone they know by simply opening their laptop and logging on. These sites that were originally intended for networking purposes are now ALSO commonly used as a dating tool. It is a lot easier to TYPE a flirty comment and approach the opposite sex in that way. The rejection factor is still there however, the fact that you don't have to see the look the person they give when they reject you helps. They can not see the look of hurt and embarrassment on your face as they shoot you down, on line you are able to save face. People tend to have tons of courage when they are typing on the keyboard and rarely if ever see you face to face.

     You're an attractive male. You've got nice pictures of yourself up and you get approached constantly by females. Before you know it your inbox has 80 messages from women who are sending you their pussy via email. They send you phone numbers, naked pictures you name it. The opportunity is there and its so tempting but you are not a single man so what do you do? Especially when it is so easy to do the EASY thing, which is the wrong thing. The more opportunity you create the greater your risk for cheating becomes.

     To me if you are going to cheat there is no point in being in a relationship. At least not a committed one. It breaks trust and it diminishes you as a person. If you're gonna step outside or your relationship break it off. Be single, that way you can screw whoever you want cause u have no commitment (if that's what you want to do). Your word means a lot. If you agree to a monogamous relationship then be prepared to only be with that one person in ways more than one. It's not ok to cheat, so don't act like it is. Have more respect for you and the person that you are with.