I wonder

Sometimes I wonder what it is that people think through out their day. I know personally my mind be goin on all type of subjects. Depending on what is goin on in your life at tha time or what you just personally encountered a few minutes ago, also dictates what goes through your mind. But what do you think when people pass you?

I know I can't be the only person who almost immediately have an opinion on people I see as they pass me by. Sometimes its a good or nice thought and sometimes its not. Whatever the thought its my honest opinion which is totally fine because that's my personal thought. I'm not hurting anyone by this opinion or thought.

But do you think that's wrong or judgmental? Just because I may think "why in the world is she wearing that shirt like she got a nice stomach?", as some girl walks by doesn't mean that I am judging her. My thought go farther than that though. I can form an opinion and do a personal analysis on a person in a matter of minutes. Usually what I think will be my opinion of them until they prove me other wise. Some things can't be proven otherwise though. Like the fact that I think the girl looks a hot mess with her flabby stomach all out. *shrugs*

Anyhow... I know I'm not the only one who does that

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I CAN'T GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT
AND I'M NOT SURE WHAT YOU NEED
THE ONLY THING I CAN DO
IS JUS BE ME
AND ME HAS A GIRL
THAT I LOVE TO DEATH
EVERYONE ELSE...
I'LL PLAY EM TO THA LEFT
YOU ARE THE EX
AND I'VE GIVEN YOU A ROLE
IF YOU PLAY IT OR NOT
THAT FUTURE IS UNTOLD
I'VE GIVEN YOU A KEY
BUT IT'S NOT TO MY HEART
I TOLD YOU THAT WHEN WE BROKE UP
SO YOU KNEW IT FROM THA START

I DIDN'T MEAN TO BREAK YA HEART SHAWTY
I WAS JUS PLAYIN THA GAME
DIDN'T THINK IT WAS THAT SERIOUS
NOW WE'LL NEVA BE THA SAME

YOUR TIME

I JUST WANT YOUR TIME,
WE AIN'T GOTTA WINE AND DINE.
I JUST WANT YA TIME,
YOU GIVE ME YOURS AND I GIVE YOU MINE.
I JUST WANT YOUR TIME,
SO WE CAN DO THA THINGS WE DO.
I JUST WANT YA TIME,
I'M TRYIN TA TELL YA I. WANT YOU.

I JUST WANT YA TIME,
THERE IS NO TELLING WHAT WE WOULD DO.
JUST SOME OF YA TIME,
GET TO KNOW A THING OR TWO.
A MOMENT OF YOUR TIME,
AND I WILL KNOW SOMETHINGS YOU DO.
JUST SOME OF YA TIME,
I'M TRYIN TA BE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU.

A MOMENT OF YA TIME,
TO HELP FORGET ABOUT YA PAST.
I JUST WANT THA TIME
TA TAKE IT SLOW, DON'T MOVE TO FAST
JUST SOME OF YA TIME,
IT NEVER WAITS SO MAKE IT LAST.

MY IDEA OF LOVE

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS NOT EXACTLY
A MILLION DOLLAR RING
DIAMONDS AND OTHER
BIG THINGS THAT
BASIC WOMEN LIKE TO SHOW
FOR THIS IS ABOUT
ME AND YOU
NOT ABOUT OTHERS
AND WHAT THEY THINK WE DO

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS LITTLE THINGS
TEXTS SAYIN I WAS ON YOUR MIND
LET'S ME KNOW
YOU THINK ABOUT ME
ALL THE TIME
THE THINGS WE SAY
IN THE PRIVACY OF US
ITS THE LITTLE THINGS THAT BUILD
SUCH A GREAT TRUST

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS WAKING UP
WITH YOU ON MY MIND
ALWAYS WANTING
TO BE NEAR YOU
NO MATTER THA TIME
EVEN WHEN YOU'RE NOT HERE
YOUR PRESENCE
IS ALWAYS CLEAR
EVERY TIME I PICK UP
MY PHONE
YOU MAKE ME FEEL
THAT I'M NOT ALONE

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS NOT JUST
YOU CALLING ME BABY
ITS SO MUCH MORE
AND IT ENDS WITH ME
BEING YOUR LADY
THIS AINT NO MAYBE
YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO
AT THE END OF THA DAY
I JUST WANT YOU

MY IDEA OF LOVE
STARTS WITH ME
AND ENDS WITH YOU
NOBODY HAS TO KNOW
OUR RELATIONSHIP IS NOT A SHOW
ITS ME AND YOU
BONNIE AND CLYDE
RIDE TIL WE DIE
I'LL ALWAYS BE BY YOUR SIDE
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tha storm

IT SEEMS AS IF SOMETHING ALWAYS GOES WRONG
THE WEATHER I THOUGHT WAS PERFECT,
TURNED INTO A STORM
THE SKY MAY LOOK BLUE
BUT TO ME IT'S GREY
AND THE CLOUDS THAT ROLL IN,
THAT'S MY ANGER
IT'S MY TEARS THAT'S THE RAIN
AND THE THUNDER YOU HEAR...
THAT'S ME SHOUTIN OUT IN PAIN
IT FILLS THE SKY AND MY BODY
WITH SO MUCH RAGE
ITS NEVER THE SAME
THINGS ALWAYS CHANGE
SO WHEN THINGS GO WRONG
WHO AM ITO BLAME
 I JUST WANT TO GO TO SLEEP
TO MAKE IT GO AWAY
MAYBE TOMORROW WILL BE
A BETTER DAY

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It always amazes me tha things people say when they are upset. like ok, so this what u been thinkin this whole time? damn.  *rolls eyes* it hurts when you get into it with people you care about and they say mean things. its human nature to feel hurt, and yet that doesn't make me feel ANY better. its crazy how we as people are so interested in other peoples lives sometimes. it's like people sometimes live tru others. and people love drama. myself included but on tv mostly, definately not in my world. our world is fukd up and people are screwed if they don't get it together! like who tha hell really makes a hobby out of lieing and fukn up other peoples lives?! or at least causing an argument or something. its like we are entertained by tha most crazy things. *shakes head* I have more to say... jus wait.

<3 Niki Diva

Never Go Back

You can never go back
Or take back tha words
Erase tha things you said and did
Tha damage is done
You words they cut like tha knife I pulled
It fukd u up
That much is tru

I played tha fool
Played with ur heart
You said it from tha start
But I didn't see it that way
All it took was one day
To kill everything u felt
All that you were hiding inside
I lost it all
And still you tried
To give me ur all
But something wouldn't work
Somethin wouldn't let us work

Maybe its not our time
Timing is everythin
Cause there's no doubt in my heart
You're tha one for me
I pray that in time we'll be
What you dream of
And that i wear ya ring
Share ya name
Nothing will ever be tha same
I will never be that again

You tought me so much
Gave me so much
So much of yourself and energy
Time you can't get back
I jus want you back
Layin next to me
Layin on me

I'm sorry I was tha one
To bring hurt upon you
Never ment to do anything to you
Now alone I sit
And slowly tha tears fall
Memories of you throughout this place
Your towel, your toothbrush, tha cup you left next to tha bed
Pieces of you all around me
I don't jus want pieces I want all of you
Sorry I caused you pain
And betrayed your trust
I really do want it to be jus us
I didn't even get a kiss good bye...