I THOUGHT IT WAS LOVE

I THOUGHT IT WAS LOVE
CAUSE IT FELT SO REAL
GENUINE, JOY AND HAPPINESS
IT WAS SO SURREAL

I THOUGHT IT WAS LOVE
CAUSE HE GAVE ME BUTTERFLIES
THE KIND THAT WERE THERE EVERYDAY
THEY LINGERED, NEVER TO FADE

BUT THEN ONE DAY
SOMETHING CHANGED
ALL OF MY FEELINGS
NO LONGER WERE THE SAME

I GUESS I SHOULD HAVE SEEN IT COMING
NOTICED MY NEED FOR HIM LESSENED
HOW MORE THINGS AGGRIVATED ME ABOUT HIM
HOW I STARTED TO CARE LESS

I KNOW IT WAS LOVE
CAUSE HE MADE MY HEART SKIP BEATS
THE KIND THAT LEAVE YOU BREATHLESS
WITH THE FEELING OF BEING SWEPT OFF YOUR FEET

I KNOW IT WAS LOVE
IT GAVE ME HOPE AND A REASON
THE THING THAT MADE ME STAY
BUT ALSO THE THING THAT MADE ME LEAVE

Let's Pretend

Lets pretend that the airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, so I could tell you what I would wish right now.

I'd go back to the days much simpler than this. Right all my wrongs and stay in bliss. Love hard, stay faithful, and enjoy my life. Be smart and act like I know the difference between wrong and right. Where being responsible was fun and I had not a worry, not one.

When joy was real and love was pure. When no one else mattered and it was just us two. 

Take me back to the days when I had just met you.

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Why Do We Fall In Love

Why do we fall in love? 
What is the point? 
Is it that we feel 
The need 
To be one with someone 
Other than ourselves 
Do we feel the need 
To share 
Ourselves, our dreams 
Our needs, our fears 
With someone 
We barely even know? 

Well it’s time to show you 
How much I want to know you 
Let’s take some time 
To unwind 
Let me share my dreams 
Let you fulfill my needs 
Let me share my fears 
Let you wipe my tears 

What’s the point? 
Do we need someone 
To touch, someone to love, 
Someone to fill out lives 
With sunshine? 
Why do we fall in love? 
What is the point? 

Do we want to give our 
Hearts away 
Only to have them 
Given back to us 
But broken? 
We think love 
Can cure all 
That it’s the 
Magic potion 
Something soothing 
Like hot lotion 
Let me put that vision 
Into focus 

Love does not cure all 
It’s a game 
It’s a test 
Its supposed to put people at their best 
And we all learned not to settle 
For second best 
Nothing less than what we expect 
And life is supposed to prepare us 
For things we are to encounter 
Its like the game of love does not 
Guarantee that you will live happily ever after 
But what does that even matter 
You’re not listening to what I’ve said 
You’re sleeping on the words that I’ve spoken 
But these words you should treat as a magic potion 
It could help you when you’re going through the motion 
Of falling in love 
Now stop and ask yourself 
Why do we fall in love 

He Aint Thinkin Bout You

It's funny how when he's home
all he does is text you
Guess cause he aint got much ta do
But as soon as he goes out
he clearly shows
He aint thinkin bout you

The calls go unanswered
The texts make it seem as if
you're talkin to yourself
Hours and hours pas by
And it becomes more apparent that
He aint thinkin bout you

It's not that he can't be out
havin his fun
Just tha fact that he expects texts from you
when you're the one that's out
With no problem you comply
cuz you  can't even deny
He's always on your mind
So a simple "i love you" is what you send
You expect then a reply
but again he makes it clear that
He aint thinkin bout you

He said he would come see you today
See you off before you left outta town
cuz it's been a while since he's come around
But now he's no where to be found
And your calls get no answer
You already know
He aint thinkin bout you

Alone

He doesn't care
He hasn't even noticed I'm not there
Pain from the needles in my arm
As the constant drip of morphine tries to make me numb
The number of visitors I've had since I've been here is less than one
The morphine only numbs so much
My emotions are loud and as the tears fall from my eyes
I begin to realize I am alone
My boyfriend hasn't even called my phone
No text to see if I'm ok or how I feel

I barely get a response when I txt him
I don't have to wonder why
I just wonder who
has his attention
And did I forget to mention
I've been here more than a day
But its tha game that he chooses to play
And by my side he choose not to lay

My heart hurts
So in this bed I stay
As the occasional nurse comes in to check on me
And as she give me more pain medicine
Slowly the tears stop as I begin to slip into sleep
The pain is over for today
But one fact remains,
I'm still in this room alone

The Double Standards Of Life

     You've got to admit... the world is pretty messed up. Life's not fair but then again who said it was supposed to be? One of the things that bother me the most is the double standards between females and males. How can something be ok for one type of people but not for another? Let me give you a few examples:

     It amazes me how a man can sleep with as many women as he wants and be labeled as "tha man".  He got chicks on deck and he's a pimp! PUH-LEEZE! Who made that shit up? I brought this subject up to someone and their response is that America is a country where bigamy is against the law. In other countries a man is able to have as many wives as he wants as long as he can take care of all of them. Note i said WIVES not smash buddies or smuts. But the woman is not to have another husband due to tradition. I believe that what the man was trying to explain to me is that because America is the only place where this is a problem it is US that thinks that. *BUZZER!!* wrong! If it's wrong for one type of person then it's wrong for another! Gender should not play a role in what's right or wrong.

     Another is how it is okay for a female to show her feelings and get all emotional but for a male to do it's portrayed as weak. Once again WHO MADE THAT RULE? I think its a complex kinda like a pride thing. Society has given us this prototype of what a man is supposed to be. One of the things a man is "supposed to be" is strong and never portray weakness. They say that one fault of a woman is that we are too emotional. We let our feelings get to the best of us and lead us in decision making. That they (society) say, is our downfall. For a man to show his emotions you see him at an extremely vulnerable state. In worst cases... you may see that man cry. And to some that is a weakness, something that a man should not show.

     Those are just two examples with a brief description of each. There are many other double standards females and males are faced with.  I just wanted to write a short piece on it. In the next few days I will be doing a video blog on this subject with more examples than those mentioned here.

I DO IT TO MYSELF

I DO TO MYSELF
BUT YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I MEAN
I DO IT TO MYSELF
BECAUSE I WANT TO LIVE THE DREAM
I DO IT TO MYSELF
BECAUSE I WANT CERTAIN THINGS
I DO IT TO MYSELF
BUT LIFE IS HARDLY WHAT IT SEEMS
I DO IT TO MYSELF
CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GIVE UP
I DO IT TO MYSELF
BECAUSE I HAVEN'T HAD ENOUGH
I DO IT TO MYSELF
NOT CAUSE IT'S SOMETHING TO DO
BUT I DO IT TO MYSELF

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU