It Never Ends Well

It never ends well
Bitch this
Fuk you that
IDK which is fact

Hurt feelings equal
Harsh words
Things I never hope to hear you say
But still I stay
Hopeing for the best
Not paying attention to the rest
Of the hurtful things you say
Cause it never ends well
When hurt feelings are involved

No matter how hard you try
Things will slip by
You may be cought up
Maybe fukd up
You never know
But things never end well

Everything Happens For A Reason

I believe everything happens for a reason. Sometimes things happen that we can't explain or that are hard on us. We don't always understand why we go thru the things that we go thru. Life is full of hard times, tough choices, confusing moments and heartbreak... But why?

The things that we go thru are the things that shape us into the person that we are. I believe everything that we go thru is supposed to teach us something however, sometimes the lesson is not learned or recognized. Life has a way of throwing a lot of curve balls at us. I've had a few hard times. Times hard enough to make me question a lot that I was doing and have done. Had to deal with times when I wasn't sure where I was gonna lay my head... That is an extremely scary feeling. That's an issue that can always be solved with money. So what I learned from being in that situation is ALWAYS have some bread saved. And I'm not talking about $20. Save a couple hundred a week if at all possible.

I've had to deal with a death of an ex whom I cared a lot about. That was probably the hardest thing I've had to go thru. It's a lot of things people can warn you about and things that you can get yourself ready to deal with. The loss of someone you care about is not one of them. My ex had Sickle Cell Anemia which is a very painful disease. And like many diseases it can eventually be terminal. Even though I knew that I still didn't think that one day he wouldn't be around. That changed me and my life. What did I learn from that? Life is short and you can't always control what happens. Be happy, be kind to others and don't take things for granted. Even that happened for a reason.

Those are just two things in particular that I chose to briefly speak about. There have been plenty of other things that has happened in my life that I have questioned. Things may be hard to deal with but everything is all apart of Gods master plan. Sometimes we have lessons to learn and sometimes we must learn them the hard way. Be the best person that you can be and with every situation take something from it and learn from it. Life is a big lesson and everything happens for a reason.

I wonder

Sometimes I wonder what it is that people think through out their day. I know personally my mind be goin on all type of subjects. Depending on what is goin on in your life at tha time or what you just personally encountered a few minutes ago, also dictates what goes through your mind. But what do you think when people pass you?

I know I can't be the only person who almost immediately have an opinion on people I see as they pass me by. Sometimes its a good or nice thought and sometimes its not. Whatever the thought its my honest opinion which is totally fine because that's my personal thought. I'm not hurting anyone by this opinion or thought.

But do you think that's wrong or judgmental? Just because I may think "why in the world is she wearing that shirt like she got a nice stomach?", as some girl walks by doesn't mean that I am judging her. My thought go farther than that though. I can form an opinion and do a personal analysis on a person in a matter of minutes. Usually what I think will be my opinion of them until they prove me other wise. Some things can't be proven otherwise though. Like the fact that I think the girl looks a hot mess with her flabby stomach all out. *shrugs*

Anyhow... I know I'm not the only one who does that

Untitled

I CAN'T GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT
AND I'M NOT SURE WHAT YOU NEED
THE ONLY THING I CAN DO
IS JUS BE ME
AND ME HAS A GIRL
THAT I LOVE TO DEATH
EVERYONE ELSE...
I'LL PLAY EM TO THA LEFT
YOU ARE THE EX
AND I'VE GIVEN YOU A ROLE
IF YOU PLAY IT OR NOT
THAT FUTURE IS UNTOLD
I'VE GIVEN YOU A KEY
BUT IT'S NOT TO MY HEART
I TOLD YOU THAT WHEN WE BROKE UP
SO YOU KNEW IT FROM THA START

I DIDN'T MEAN TO BREAK YA HEART SHAWTY
I WAS JUS PLAYIN THA GAME
DIDN'T THINK IT WAS THAT SERIOUS
NOW WE'LL NEVA BE THA SAME

YOUR TIME

I JUST WANT YOUR TIME,
WE AIN'T GOTTA WINE AND DINE.
I JUST WANT YA TIME,
YOU GIVE ME YOURS AND I GIVE YOU MINE.
I JUST WANT YOUR TIME,
SO WE CAN DO THA THINGS WE DO.
I JUST WANT YA TIME,
I'M TRYIN TA TELL YA I. WANT YOU.

I JUST WANT YA TIME,
THERE IS NO TELLING WHAT WE WOULD DO.
JUST SOME OF YA TIME,
GET TO KNOW A THING OR TWO.
A MOMENT OF YOUR TIME,
AND I WILL KNOW SOMETHINGS YOU DO.
JUST SOME OF YA TIME,
I'M TRYIN TA BE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU.

A MOMENT OF YA TIME,
TO HELP FORGET ABOUT YA PAST.
I JUST WANT THA TIME
TA TAKE IT SLOW, DON'T MOVE TO FAST
JUST SOME OF YA TIME,
IT NEVER WAITS SO MAKE IT LAST.

MY IDEA OF LOVE

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS NOT EXACTLY
A MILLION DOLLAR RING
DIAMONDS AND OTHER
BIG THINGS THAT
BASIC WOMEN LIKE TO SHOW
FOR THIS IS ABOUT
ME AND YOU
NOT ABOUT OTHERS
AND WHAT THEY THINK WE DO

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS LITTLE THINGS
TEXTS SAYIN I WAS ON YOUR MIND
LET'S ME KNOW
YOU THINK ABOUT ME
ALL THE TIME
THE THINGS WE SAY
IN THE PRIVACY OF US
ITS THE LITTLE THINGS THAT BUILD
SUCH A GREAT TRUST

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS WAKING UP
WITH YOU ON MY MIND
ALWAYS WANTING
TO BE NEAR YOU
NO MATTER THA TIME
EVEN WHEN YOU'RE NOT HERE
YOUR PRESENCE
IS ALWAYS CLEAR
EVERY TIME I PICK UP
MY PHONE
YOU MAKE ME FEEL
THAT I'M NOT ALONE

MY IDEA OF LOVE
IS NOT JUST
YOU CALLING ME BABY
ITS SO MUCH MORE
AND IT ENDS WITH ME
BEING YOUR LADY
THIS AINT NO MAYBE
YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO
AT THE END OF THA DAY
I JUST WANT YOU

MY IDEA OF LOVE
STARTS WITH ME
AND ENDS WITH YOU
NOBODY HAS TO KNOW
OUR RELATIONSHIP IS NOT A SHOW
ITS ME AND YOU
BONNIE AND CLYDE
RIDE TIL WE DIE
I'LL ALWAYS BE BY YOUR SIDE
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tha storm

IT SEEMS AS IF SOMETHING ALWAYS GOES WRONG
THE WEATHER I THOUGHT WAS PERFECT,
TURNED INTO A STORM
THE SKY MAY LOOK BLUE
BUT TO ME IT'S GREY
AND THE CLOUDS THAT ROLL IN,
THAT'S MY ANGER
IT'S MY TEARS THAT'S THE RAIN
AND THE THUNDER YOU HEAR...
THAT'S ME SHOUTIN OUT IN PAIN
IT FILLS THE SKY AND MY BODY
WITH SO MUCH RAGE
ITS NEVER THE SAME
THINGS ALWAYS CHANGE
SO WHEN THINGS GO WRONG
WHO AM ITO BLAME
 I JUST WANT TO GO TO SLEEP
TO MAKE IT GO AWAY
MAYBE TOMORROW WILL BE
A BETTER DAY